Tight Circularity

I

I live in the New World,
I live in space,
real human being and real butt scientist.

Every time an angel cries, the stock market rallies
for God's sake, someone scribble another poem about a sprouting flower.

II

“We write out of revenge against reality, to dream and enter the lives of others."
'It is not possible for you to sink lower than the infinite light of Christ's atonement shines.'
"To grab your own leg as a foreign object and to ponder
and to photograph. I think it is very profound."
'It would be pitiable if a man couldn’t follow an argument & shifted the blame
away from himself, hating and reviling reasonable discussion'
"If you are caught in Satan's trap of pornography,
remember how merciful our beloved Savior is."
'year of sexting and frustration, year you lay armfuls of begonias 
in her lap, year you folded her hands across yours'
"The Lord sees weaknesses differently than he does rebellion."

III

[crawls back into the womb]

Not by wrath does one kill, but by laughter.
The man of knowledge must be able not only to love his enemies
but also to hate his friends, for each ecstatic instant
we must an anguish pay in keen and quivering ratio to the ecstasy.

The Millenial star, Kate chooses apostasy:
We have already gone beyond whatever we have words for,
in all talk there is a grain of contempt. The family
is the original fascist unit. We are shaped by our thoughts.
We become what we think. When the mind is pure,
joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.

IV

Welcome to Berlin, everyone here wants you dead
and there's an implacable scent of death in the air.
Load Universe into Cannon. Aim at brain. Fire.
I began to have fantasies of becoming very powerful
and stopping everyone from having sex.

Dear future children (if I buy you):
I promise your life will not be like the plot
of a TV show. The currency of Cis
people is violent, deadly gender enforcement.
It is their lifeblood.

And their god you can still become,
everything you were created to be. Don't
make excuses. Don't wait for a more convenient time.

V

Is the placebo effect getting stronger, or is it just me?
Consumption is the fuel on which this system depends,
[so] how can [it] take place without running
counter to the interests of liberation? Dig up

one sad dimension (is mercifully extinguished):
timelapse video of you at home, the things in the room
disintegrate to ash but you don't. You stay the same
horrible person you've always been: spiders, dummies,
and a whole lot of memes who want to go 3rd person

VI

The phrase "white trash" exemplifies the prejudice of the postmodern
era, which is primarily classist but historically based on race. My youth
pastor listens to dubstep. Mondays are God's punishment
for what we did on the weekend. Momentum lost,

momentum never gained
in the same building
that have different floor numbering schemes.
Sorry guys my life has been taken
over by rust.

Eat. Sleep. Craft. Repeat.
Welcome to our community of reality expats.
This is what happens when you give every kid a trophy for just showing up.

Gathering and showing more always and with velocity,
Big Data - it's not just a buzzword. It's here to stay.

I live for the moment when I drag a foot-long, eyeless newt
out into the light of day so everyone can point at it and marvel...
the thing I feared was exactly the thing I needed to grow